Sunday, July 29, 2007

freedom and happiness outside the american dream

Okay, so I watched the Goblet of Fire and I can get the quote right this time. A time is coming when you will have to choose between what is right and what is easy. That's much better than my previous paraphrase. I guess sort of laying the ground work for the next story...

I was thinking about a quote that I've carried around in me for ever... Winston Churchill, one of many about success and failure. I don't feel like writing it word for word, and I know it by heart, but the gist is that success is not losing your enthusiasm when you fail. I was feeling doubts about it... Like maybe there is something missing, but what I think I intuitively took from it in the past was not giving up on myself. I think what seems to be missing is change. As good as it may be to stay enthusiastic despite continual failure something about it is beginning to seem irresponsible to me. Maybe I'm making it into a story? Apparently Churchill had an incredible history of failures, it seems that didn't change until be became prime minister. (Is that the right title?) In many ways success has developed a whole new meaning to me. I'm not sure I had a clear idea in the past of what I thought it was, but I think it was similar to the usual interpretation. I think success is being happy. Truly happy. Another concept I came across recently for success that I also find viable is freedom. Freedom from everything, I think that works with my happy concept. The most successful people know how to be happy without expectation- I don't. I want to be free, a big part of me is discontent because I don't see myself as free. I think it means the ability to be yourself without any constraint, physical, mental or emotional.

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