Driving angry

I am in a foul mood today... i can't seem to shake it. Hormones don't help I imagine, but maybe they really aren't playing a factor right now. (funny expression) MDC on monday mornings is pretty quiet, not a soul around; just a great time to blog for four hours. At least I'm hoping that's how long my shift is. (Although, I will have to help process holds shortly.) I think I've started accepting too many hours again, my god I seem to get offers every day now. I've gotten good at not over doing the long shifts, but I've got a sort of fear based tendency to suck up any short shifts they offer so I have a good excuse not to accept a long shift. Stupid.

I've been thinking about photoshop lately, (as in since yesterday) and a mac laptop. They've entered the wish list, they used to be in the far distance, but I'm thinking I want them to become part of my life a little sooner. Photoshop is expensive (as if a mac laptop isn't... I think they're both around about the same price... ) I think I wouldn' t do internet for a while, my laptop would essentially be a portable photoshop. (smile) I'd really like to start an art blog, but I have a few complications to contend with. I don't have a digital camera (maybe I can scan and upload to the blog? But most of my pieces are too big, grr.) But that's all moot, I can't blog at home because my mom's computer is over-secured. (hopefully if she ever reads my blog she isn't offended. I love you mom. :) Just not your over-secured computer.)

It is so cold out today that in the car -with my gloves on- my fingers were stinging. I think it always takes longer for a car to heat up in cold weather. I have a space heater at home that produces instant heat, I need that in my car... Is there such a thing as a cordless space heater? How dangerous would that be? Maybe I just need to develop a habit of warming the car up before I leave... That would require thinking about it ten minutes before I need to leave, I don't seem to ever think of things like that.

I don't have enough time for my own life! And I know it's my own fault... must make effort to correct that. I can't believe how quickly my schedule is filling in, months and months already fully booked... I think it would be wise to leave space for call-ins, and last minutes... But that is hard to do. In winter it's easy to bank on many last minute calls, so many people get sick and call out. But that enters the realm of unpredictable in spring...

Sarah, how do I create links on my blog? I know I made a comment about how you have a consistent readership of two, well, I have a readership of one. And also, when I search for your blog on google it can't find you. I can only get to you through the link included in your email. Which will be lost once I check at home... My technological access is complicated by wonky settings. (Maybe I should give up checking at home...)

I am going to get slides and cd-roms of my art work. I just have to do that, I've put it off too long because of expenses, it's too important to make it such a low priority in my life. And I'm going to register myself on the Maryland artists website. I've wavered, because I have no idea how much longer I'll be an MD resident (I thought I was going to move last summer, heh) but here I am still.

I think I've been a little needy on the floor, one of those days where I don't seem to know anything that comes by me and I seem to be making stupid decisions, not a day of feeling empowered... No indeed. I hate it when I find I have to ask lots of questions in a short period of time, here comes Sarah the Annoying again, run away run away! But people are always very nice. 11 minutes to go. Hopefully I can get through these last minutes without being confronted with problems I can't fulfill. I don't know where the new registration bin is! It's a secret apparently.

When I leave I'm going to have to go through the same process of trying to warm my car up, I'm so bitchy about it today because I believe this is the coldest day we've had yet (and windy to boot) I can't go further north. How can people bare it? I'd have to hibernate in my house all winter. But I'm not feeling foul anymore.

Wake up sleepy head...