Anxiety attacks

I had a different kind of anxiety last night, new to me. It reminded me of the anxiety Sarah tells me she gets sometimes, the kind that wakes you up in the night, frequently. I kept waking up and each time I was so upset that I felt sick. Like all anxiety attacks there was a sort of irrationality about it that I recognized, but that realization didn't help me to shake it. On the surface I felt like what I was upset about going to bed too late and that I would be overwhelmed the next day getting up early for work. This usually wouldn't be a concern accept that I am on the third day of my period and this tends to be a time of heightened sensitivity. It was rather shocking to me that I was so upset.

bLAH! It's been positively crazy today! Short blog, I like them to be long... I guess the weekends are busy here. But this has been eight hours of busy rather than the four hours on sunday. Still helps the shift to fly by. A calm has settled in!

Spiritual Renaissance... A couple things recently have been coming up and they are lingering in my mind... I think both come out of south america, (one is fictional, same concept the other a prophecy from the past.) Something like quequeg, but that's not quite it, the only thing I know I have right in that name is the first q. Both ideas (the fictional one is the Celestine Prophecy) are that there is a spiritual change coming to the world that is going to alter how people see the world and there for live, a very positive change. There was a man being interviewed on the radio this morning who had been down to south america and had these experiences, and he wrote about them, and he believes more people are going to have them, he said he isn't quite sure what they were and he is of a skeptical nature... I missed the begining of the interview... But it struck me that what these things are talking about is a spiritual renaissance, the man in the interview talked about how our culture is going back towards religion/spirituality in a rejection of (science? politics? corruption?) it's just a vaigue sense... He related it to the enlightenment, but I'm sketchy about the enlightenment, that is why I am inclined to call it a spiritual renaissance... That to me indicates a blossoming from the inside and great potential.

better sign off.