Downer

So I am royally bummed today. Things didn't start out all that well. I guess I've been "stalked" for about the last five months. Seems too strong. The guy is truly crazy and his mind does not submit to logic. How do you address and alleviate such a problem? I left a message on his phone today requesting that he cease calling me and not come by my house. He promptly came by my house, in his pajamas, to verify if the message was from me (twice). A part of me wants to appreciate how comical it all is except that he also called at two (I didn't answer) and I know it's going to keep happening. Gonna block both his numbers. But will it do the trick?

I also have the song "kiss the girl" from little mermaid in my head... no idea why?

Does anyone know how little this holiday weekend effects me? (people keep wishing me a nice holiday weekend. oh, yes, yes, nice.) I work all day saturday and the rest of the days are like any other. Not to disrespect memorial day. The past two years, though, I've been in D.C. on memorial day and gotten to see all the Vietnam Vets on motorcycles come in in mass numbers for some special event I can't remember the name of. Pretty cool thing to witness. Seems like miles and miles of gritty people on harleys.

I don't know. Maybe I should just stop... I'm going to see Pirates of the Caribbean, I think this qualifies as the first time I've ever gone to a movie on its opening night. I think this is an insane thing to do. I am very afraid of the potential parking condition and then being able to get a decent seat. None of these thoughts were obvious to me when I agreed to go see this movie tonight. I hadn't reflected on the fact that it was the opening night. That's okay, maybe it's an adventure? Sure, I just need to look at it that way...

I wish I could pick myself up. I feel so morose. My brother went back to NYC today, his visit was very nice. He came down as a surprise for my fathers b-day. We had a "lovely" dinner at Ramshead. I've been moody for a couple weeks, I need to get over this. I did like my beer, C-126. What the hell kind of a name is that for beer? Sounds like a jet. (There is a twittering bulb above me that is steadily getting worse. Bordering on epileptic.) I wonder who replaces them and how often?

So I had one pleasant experience today. I spent some time at the little man made ponds behind Waugh Chapel watching the geese and ducks. There was some rather diverse wildlife as well, a redwing blackbird, a blue heron (or what ever bird that looks like it). The little blackbird was trying to chase away the heron. I guess he some him as a potential predator? The geese had one baby with them, a big ball of down. Cute, clumbsy and awkward. I did some sketches, animals move too much, I hate drawing mostly from memory, doesn't feel real... I also saw the pier one staff unloading a truck which really brought me back. To those far away days when I would get up to unload a truck at six in the morning once every bloody week.

I did some painting today, in front of little bear, sort of to sooth myself (both things that is, paint and cartoons). Like Saul listening to David play the harp and his soul with in him calming down. That image, more than any other from the bible, really stays with me. How very intense, a man whose soul finds no rest except when David plays the harp. (or what ever biblical equivalent). Very little painting, just a few outlines. I literally had less than half an hour before I had to leave for work, but dammit, I was going to paint. It's sort of weird to watch the little button at the base of the new post screen change from save now, to saved all on its own. There is a permanent message letting me know they do this automatically now. Which is very helpful, my last blog was done on a day when we lost internet service and I thought I'd lose my post.

I'm kind of bummed about 1001 journals, sort of paying less attention to it now. I contacted the next person on the list and they haven't gotten back to me. I might skip them, but I wonder if the others will be responsive? Order is of no importance. I do things my own way, after all I'm the moderator.

I have mild allergies, I've been sneezing a great deal and my eyes periodically hurt. I think when my cats go out they pick up a lot of pollen, because since spring has begun being near them makes my eyes hurt. That's it, I'm done for today.